I know my vast and numerous throng of blog followers are probally super sad that I have not been keping up on this page. So I decided to come back and give it another try...
(So here you go you 3 people who read this!!)
I have had an epiphany!! I love that word epiphany!!
It kinda caught me off gard this sudden inspriration about myself. But I do believe it will help me in the future.
Here it is... I seem to almost always get my answers to prayers in a very specific way.
Now this fact may have occured to other people already. I am sure most people found out way before turning...(you thought i was gonna post my age here huh?) into an adult that they hear or feel answers in one way better than another and are than more intune to listen when those answers come.
I am a little slower I guess cause it has taken me a lot longer to figure it out than I should have. Mabe I have know on some basic level...
You may feel that "warm fuzzy"... I get that, not often but I can say I have felt the warmth.
Or a Whisper... that too sometimes the Lord speaks softly to me when he may know that I will listen.
Burning... my heart has ached once or twice like it was on fire.
Even Thoughts or Impressions... for me more often than not I get the stupor of thought.
But here is where the whole epiphany thing comes in...love that word epiphany
MY ANSWERS, the ones where it just stops me in my tracks and I know it is a message or an answer to prayers... the knock me off my feet and I learn the biggest lessons have my most meaningful answers come in the form of HUMOR.
This may sound stupid even sacreligious but it is so true for me.
It is not the warm fuzzy the burning the thought or whisper or lack of any of those things that stick with me the most.
My answers come best when the lord makes me laugh.
With that being said I am gonna start posting funny funny funny things that happen to me here and there and show you how they have become the best things for me.
This last week I had a Bladder apt. I have been in a lot of pain. Pain that I cant control for me is pretty intense and so this last week I have been cranky. To the point that I have not wanted to be around people for fear of hurting someone or hurting someones feelings.
It was not good I yelled at people on the phone for work. I was short with my friends and family. or I was holed up in my bed not wanting to see anyone. I was getting to the point where i was kinda worried that I was depressed. Than to top it all off I have a SOFTBALL size cyst drained. Needless to say my mood wasnt going to be getting anybetter anytime soon.
Coming home from this doctors apt. after checking to see that the procedure the week before was healing I have had a cath. which is painful and I am driving home and hit traffic. So I am PISSED... and decide that enough is enough and I need some "heavenly help" to change my mood cause there is no way I can do it on my own... I say a quick prayer.
Please Please Please Heavenly Father just help me to be better I need an adittude adjustment please dont be too hard on me if I swear coming home the traffic is more than I can handle right now. I want to be happier if you can help me with that it would be a good thing. I will try to be better...
And than I notice this...
And I just start busting up... What perfect timing and what a perfect Heavenly Father.
My Prayer ends with Thank you Thank you Thank you. I know this is your way of telling me I need to be happy. I need to be in a better mood even if my as is not so meri. I will try to be happier even if my meri as* isnt so much right now...
So I guess that is it.
I hope it made you laugh or at least a little bit more "Meri"
