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 1st adventure in 2022 is done....

What a way to start. The best adventure ever. A trip to the great north.

Family and Fun... Honestly my favorite adventure in such a long time.

That being said we all got covid and were there 2 extra weeks.

No one was very sick at all and so it was just a free 2 week stay with people we all love. 

Music cards memories it was amazing. 

Tried several nights to see the aura lights (no luck this time but i will be back!!)

I can not wait for what comes next!!

Remember

 Just had a thought....

Now I get to remember you longer than i was able to know you.

It's getting to be that time of the year when my happiest and hardest memories come for one of my most favorite people.

It is odd. To get to know a person their whole life and to have memories of them from the day they were born to the day they leave this world... And all the in between. 

It is odd to realize that they now have been away, so far away for as long as they were here and even more.

Just happy to get to go along. 

Just happy to sit on the floor

Just happy for the friends and family

Just happy.

 

Passion

 I have been looking at how to start a blog (or really re-start) it seems these days its all about  posting videos on social media and trying to go viral.  A lot of what I am finding suggests finding something you are passionate about and condensing it into a short little dance. 

I have had a lot of things i have been passionate about... Things that i just have had to do to share that demanded of me to shout about it on the roof tops. Those things that were inside of me and i could just not contain... They had to be created or talked about and released into the world. But that was in a time when i was young and when the world was at my finger tips and i could do anything with out fear.

What i am finding now is i have the tools i did not have before... Shouting to the world is so much easier with the internet... And social media. 

  I am having to re find my passion. It is quite these days maybe i kept it silenced too long and it is hesitant to come back up to the surface where it will be easily documented and released. Can passion be shy? 

I have a softness there now, where when i was young it seemed  to be bursting at the seems.

I herd/ and saw in a video recently ( i think it was gary vee? )  If i can find it again i will give proper credit... 

I think i am pretty close to the wording that was used... But this is paraphrasing as i am not 100% certain the words are 100% correct.

"There is no excuse for not talking to the world... It just doesn't have to be your thoughts and words every time.    The key to success is you got to start documenting instead of creating... Just start."

So here goes...

I am not sure right now if my passion is communication, but I do love it. 

I am not sure if it is connecting to people, but it does drive me to be better no matter how i connect. 

I do know this year my goal is to find joy and to spread that to collect as much as possible from people and stories and when allowed to share those stories with others... 

For now this passion is quite. But i think it has the potential to become glorious and some thing i will not be able to contain for myself.

Count down to Alaska

 New adventures begining early this year and honestly I can not wait... Seriously less than a week to go and I am already having a hard time sleeping with excitement. I have decided i will take all opportunities to do unique and unusual things as they come and open myself to be quick to say yes. Since committing to that and leaving the conventional job i have had this trip presented itself. To alaska in the winter for 10 days with family i haven't really been around in 20 years!! I can not wait. Who gets to do things like this?!! What a Lucky Girl I Am!!! 

2022 a year for joy

 I have been absentee... It has been a few years of good but hard. I am sure most who find this blog will feel the same. 

I have had a few jobs since the last entry... Only a few and i have all loved them for different reasons. I have learned from each.

With the last two years however i have taken away 2 major truths about myself...

I have a talent for putting up with and helping people with their BS. And this seems to be my best marketable skill. 

No matter where my path has taken me in the last 12 years i have found myself ending in spaces where i am being paid to listen to yelling cursing upset people just unload and expect ludicrous things... And i have allowed this to define a lot of who i have become.  

I have a wicked and quick sense of humor that boarders on morbid...my once unlimited patience has become thin waned and tired... This combo alone has gotten me into more scrapes recently than i care to admit... 

But i hit a wall these last two weeks from a 2nd hand conversation about me that was actually very telling... 

My poor mother who has been very sick was home while i have been in a different state unable to really care for her in any commodity but over the phone. My sister Cortni has been shouldering the duties of care-giver.  

Cort called to tell me mom had told her (she was very drugged and not well at all) she wished i was there to help to take care of her... Because i was only nice to her when she was sick...

And well it has been a hard couple of years but nothing has hit harder in a long while than this...

I am not gonna lie. It made me laugh first... And than the truth came crashing down... I am sooo good at dealing with all the bull but the bull is not good at dealing with me... I am turning into those people who i hate.

If i had not been jobless already (barely and that is a story for another day) i would have quit on the spot!

So for 2 weeks and change... I have been trying to figure out how am i gonna live and afford life with out being miserable and mean... 

I am doing everything right now based on how it is making me feel... I am looking for a job (i am averaging 14 job apps a day) but honestly i can not get paid enough to revert back to nastiness... 

I am considering doing more of the things that i love and i am trying to figure out how to make money doing those things... Things that will enrich the people i come in contact with.

Blogging is one of those things.

Hopefully someone will read these and smile and be happy because of my craziness... 

Just some thoughts from an unemployed slightly c anchoress person trying to be more happy and turn 2022 into a year for joy.

ok its time to go shewding!!

ok i am weady... i got my shewd..

you going shewding too..right?

you gonna go cause i am using my pwetty pwease face!! so can we go now?!

SHWEDDING VIDEOS ENJOY!!

um anutie mandi ... yes jack... what does energy constipation mean...(the tv is going in the back ground)... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! BAHAHAHAHAHA!! I love this kid!!

THE A TEAM....

I THINK HE LOOKS LIKE HANNIBAL? ANYBODY ELSE SEE IT?

LOVE YA DAD GET BETTER SOON...

I have had an epiphany!!

Its been awhile and I am so sorry!!

I know my vast and numerous throng of blog followers are probally super sad that I have not been keping up on this page. So I decided to come back and give it another try...
(So here you go you 3 people who read this!!)

I have had an epiphany!! I love that word epiphany!!

It kinda caught me off gard this sudden inspriration about myself. But I do believe it will help me in the future.

Here it is... I seem to almost always get my answers to prayers in a very specific way.

Now this fact may have occured to other people already. I am sure most people found out way before turning...(you thought i was gonna post my age here huh?) into an adult that they hear or feel answers in one way better than another and are than more intune to listen when those answers come.

I am a little slower I guess cause it has taken me a lot longer to figure it out than I should have. Mabe I have know on some basic level...

You may feel that "warm fuzzy"... I get that, not often but I can say I have felt the warmth.

Or a Whisper... that too sometimes the Lord speaks softly to me when he may know that I will listen.

Burning... my heart has ached once or twice like it was on fire.

Even Thoughts or Impressions... for me more often than not I get the stupor of thought.

But here is where the whole epiphany thing comes in...love that word epiphany

MY ANSWERS, the ones where it just stops me in my tracks and I know it is a message or an answer to prayers... the knock me off my feet and I learn the biggest lessons have my most meaningful answers come in the form of HUMOR.

This may sound stupid even sacreligious but it is so true for me.

It is not the warm fuzzy the burning the thought or whisper or lack of any of those things that stick with me the most.
My answers come best when the lord makes me laugh.

With that being said I am gonna start posting funny funny funny things that happen to me here and there and show you how they have become the best things for me.

This last week I had a Bladder apt. I have been in a lot of pain. Pain that I cant control for me is pretty intense and so this last week I have been cranky. To the point that I have not wanted to be around people for fear of hurting someone or hurting someones feelings.
It was not good I yelled at people on the phone for work. I was short with my friends and family. or I was holed up in my bed not wanting to see anyone. I was getting to the point where i was kinda worried that I was depressed. Than to top it all off I have a SOFTBALL size cyst drained. Needless to say my mood wasnt going to be getting anybetter anytime soon.
Coming home from this doctors apt. after checking to see that the procedure the week before was healing I have had a cath. which is painful and I am driving home and hit traffic. So I am PISSED... and decide that enough is enough and I need some "heavenly help" to change my mood cause there is no way I can do it on my own... I say a quick prayer.

Please Please Please Heavenly Father just help me to be better I need an adittude adjustment please dont be too hard on me if I swear coming home the traffic is more than I can handle right now. I want to be happier if you can help me with that it would be a good thing. I will try to be better...

And than I notice this...

And I just start busting up... What perfect timing and what a perfect Heavenly Father.

My Prayer ends with Thank you Thank you Thank you. I know this is your way of telling me I need to be happy. I need to be in a better mood even if my as is not so meri. I will try to be happier even if my meri as* isnt so much right now...

So I guess that is it.

I hope it made you laugh or at least a little bit more "Meri"

I love love love this video and just found it again... a visit with grahms family and little dane just really starting to talk.

We watched the new ice age movie and dane picked up on this phrase... gotta listen to it a couple of time to get it can anyone guess what he is saying?

sorry its upside down new phone and i was just figuring it out!!

well it has been a week....

here it is another fun story with pictures.
I do have to say these ones are really pretty so if you have weak stomachs don't even bother...
Friday night I was having some pain, the weird thing was on top of the pain I usually get in my stomach and bladder I had a killer headache seriously I was thinking I was having the beginnings of a migraine.
I was not so happy with this but whatever I got my rice rag out heated it up and was preparing for a long night of pain killers and cheesy movies... no worries.
After calling a friend to help me go get Grammies from the airport cause I couldn't drive while on meds... I knew I needed to sleep or pass out the pain in my head was getting worse.
I had grammie feel my jaw i thought it was puffy and my eyes were hurting too
so I looked in my mouth no pain on my teeth but like I said it was a little puffy.... nothing

Maybe two hours later one small purple dot on my gum line but nothing that was too big of a deal. still thinking i am OK.... I will go to bed and see a doctor tomorrow i do have a slight fever...

When i woke up 3 hours later in pain the nasty little surprise above is rearing its ugly head. Its like 4 am and i am really worried!! Dang it i gotta go to a dentist.... good luck with that on a Friday in Boise....


about an hour later about 5 am not even the left over pain killers i have for my bladder surgery is touching the pain and it has swelled to golf ball size i am shocked that it hasn't burst and that my gums are holding up my cheek is swollen and yellow you can see the golf ball in this picture i kid you not the abscess in my mouth golf ball size (sorry its way gross but i am freaking out!! and thinking seriously SERIOUSLY this is happening to me?!?!?!!!)
At 9 Uncle Rob is calling his friend and neighbor who is a dentist i have called Kim's friend who is a dentist and Ellen and Scott Taylor who have a dental office too by 11 I am calling Ashley to see how bad this is and what in the world i can do if i cant get in to see a dentist cause every office i know is closed on Fridays .... what i am really wanting to say is i cant take this pain anymore Ive got Grammies drill is that a bad idea to just pop this sucker myself and than make my way into the er?


Uncles friend pulls through at the last sec and will see me at 2 30. When i go in he asks why i am in and because i am not crying probably doesn't really realize that it is as bad as it was cause when i pull my lip down to show him both he and the dental hygienist both gasp and get stuff out of drawers right away. I had to swear over and over again that this hasn't been festering for months in fact it happened literally overnight. Even worse that the abscess "popped up" within about an hour of what i knew was going on. I still don't think he believed me though.

The dentist who was amazing by the way!! He did an ex ray and told me flat out that the tooth needed to go just by the sheer size of the abscess he said he felt he needed to take the tooth but that he could see there were many fractures on the tooth... he asked me if i had any head trauma that would explain tooth fractures i had to laugh.... and the whole dumpster story came out...
which had him going cause i guess Shay and Shelby hid in his garbage cans one day trying to scare his kids so he thinks our family must have some weird thing with trash cans .... hehehe anyway out came the tooth... and you were right Ashley with that much infection the Novocaine really does nothing to numb the area.... i didn't much care how ever cause i knew the sec that the it came out there would be relief and boy was there!!!

(actually when he stuck me with the needle the first time the abscess burst and they had to stop for a few to suction out all the gross.... and than again when they finally got the tooth out, ((the dentist said i have great roots!! ) there was a second pocket of gross... but man oh man i have not felt sooooooo much pain and i have had my fair share.... and sooooooo much relief as when that tooth was gone!!! )
So that is my latest news, if its not one end with me it is another!!

Little Ceasers Foot Disaster

Who doesn't love this guy right?.............
Well after today I m gonna say he's not my biggest fan!!!
So here it is my latest incident which I am now dubbing Little Ceasers Foot Disaster.

Tuesday night a bunch of my friends were getting together to celebrate a birthday party and to say goodbye to another friend. They are both pretty popular here in Boise so we knew there were gonna be a ton of people show up and decided that food was a necessity.
Of course I was nominated to be the runner for the Pizza because that makes the best sense, how this was decided I am still not sure maybe I offered what was going through my head? But no worries I got it I was thinking as I drove to the pizza joint I will pick up the 10 or so pizzas that were ordered and head back no biggie its all good.

I have to say that this was sure fire recipe for nothing good...I am the shortest by far of any of my friends like I can even see over two boxes let alone 10? My short little arms were not made for pizza delivery? Uh hello?

I also have a sun fire like where am I gonna fit 10 boxes of pizza 4 bags of cheesy bread and 6 2-liter pop bottles...... ummmmmm hello hello??

I get to Ceasers and there are like all guys behind the counter and they are way cute despite their obvious age gap. I am thinking thank goodness I am dressed to be going to a party and don't have like just two pizzas to pick up. They will know I have friends and I am not going home to consume these pizzas by myself on my couch alone watching some cheesy love movie like Twilight or Dear John.... No I am Super Cooooool and pretty darn sexy tonight, yup I even flirted a little.... they were again too young but I was feeling pretty good about myself.....and a couple of them looked like Jacob or Edward or that Tatum kid... did I mention they were cute?

Karma is a mmmmmmm, I was cocky and she knew it.

I decided I would only make two trips so with like 4 boxes in my hands I am walking out some guy is holding the door for me but is also trying to get out the door he kinda cuts me off and I kinda get clipped by the door.

I am trying to correct my footing like dancing Ive got it, no way am I going down......hehehehehehe yup I am so going down.

I face planted it. It was perfect placement. If I am gonna do something I definitely do it right.

Rolled my ankle

Hands pinned (by the fact that Ive got 4 pizza, cause of course I am not gonna save my face that I just spent thousands of dollars to fix after the dumpster? No way dude I am saving that pizza I just flirted my butt off to get free cheesy bread for. )

Road burns to both knees

Pizza flat (like body indention flat all the way through to the very last box (however not one little bit of cheese landed outside the box...)

yup add a couple of boxes under this guys face and you have got me.... oh wait did I mention that the pizza joint is one big glass box?

yup add a couple of boxes and a big glass box of like 20ish people plus the cute young kids making the pizzas behind this guy and you have got me..... it was also 7ish prime time pizza buying hour... I kid you not like 20 people just in the pizza store were witness?!

Now you can and will come to the conclusion that after hitting curb I was, despite my effort in recent to try to stop swearing, about 45 seconds into a constant stream of muffled cheesy curses... I only add this part of the story because I had an Epiphany about myself. I am most like my father at Christmas under a flaky fake white Christmas tree with blue and silver glass ornaments when i am eating curb and pizza I am a swearing and it is something that I am sure I will pass on to at least one of my children.

I got up and slowly turned around after the moment I realized I wasn't crying swearing or laughing anymore and faced my audience....

Some of them were trying not to laugh and some of them were not....It was way funny and I do promise that if i had witnessed I would have run to help but could not promise that I wouldn't also be in tears with laughter... so if you are laughing now know that that is OK by me.

The cute boys in the pizza place baked me new pizzas and took all the rest of the pizzas to my car... delivery by Twilight cast isn't too bad for a small fall?

As i was at the party later retelling my mishap I had to stop as a suggestion of looking up the number to little ceasers and call was suggested to see if I could be lucky enough to have the footage caught on security video.... They swear if they can get their hands on it it will end up on YouTube....

Fingers crossed.......

this my friends is the end results.... hey wait a sec., I am just

now noticing how much my toes look like that ceaser guys?

hmmmmm maybe this story is funnier than I thought?

PS.... that night I had nightmares of falling into a big glass dumpster full of pizzas....

soooooo the last blog entry got so many chuckles i thought id add some more and see if you all can think of who i am thinking of... i'll give you a couple of weeks to figure it out and than post the look alikes up....

I know its late but as I was looking through some pictures I noticed some thing kinda funny...

it seems all my neices and nephews look like well see for yourself...

Come on cant you see it?

Ralphie Ralphie...

See any kinda of resemblance?

NEW MOON FREAKN' ROCKED!!

PICTURES TO REMEMBER OUR NIGHT

LOVE THE FACE CORT!!

THE BACK SAYS TEAM JACOB... WE LOVED THE SHIRTLESS WAREWOLF!!

GOT ON THE RADIO AGAIN....




THE FRONT OF THE SHIRT SAYS...

WILD 101 IS SEXIER THAN EDWARD!!

THATS STEPHAINE WE LOVE HER!! SHE WORKS AT 101 AND GAVE US OUR TICKETS!






THESE PICTURES ARE FOR YOU MOM... FOR THE SCRAPING!!

NEW MOON HERE WE COME!!!

For those of you who know me you know that I am not lacking in the luck,
unfortunately it has however never been that of the good kind. I have always been blessed to scrape by and have found the silver lining in all things endured for the most part anyway,
Well I would like to say that I really do think my past Luck has taken a turn and in hopes that this post wont jinks anything Id like to say I owe it all to New Moon and my new favorite music station WILD 101!!

!!!!I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON, I WON!!!!

I won tickets to see NEW MOON opening night for the premiere showing Thursday night... there will be Twilight, food, party, and then at midnight NEW MOON... and yes my friends did I mention I won tickets to it all?!

I do have to say I am SOOOOO excited and to top it all off Cortni won tickets to the same event!! what are the odds?! So she and I will be sitting in the best show wearing cheesy TEAM JACOB garb, and we will be loving every second of it!!! Eat your hearts out!!!!

I am also gonna say something here that will probably get me booed right out of the whole Twlight fanatic club, but it must be said... I am way more excited about this one than the first...Twilight was well, It was pure cheese!! But New moon... well DANG GINA they got to dump money into and the new cast members I think will make all the difference. I especially cant wait for Fanning to rock the red eyes and crazy Vampire skills, she looks scary serious!! Common who doesn't want to see little Sam I am bite the heck out of some poor clueless Vatican tourists?

PLEASE TELL ME YOU DON'T FEEL THE SAME WAY AFTER SEEING THIS PICTURE OF HER... YOU KNOW SEAN PEN WOULD BE PROUD!!

EVERYBODY KNOWS I AM A FAN OF THE DOGGIES...BUT

EVEN THIS NEW POSTER GOT ME THINKING HE IS PRETTY SEXY!! THERE

IS ONE POINT FOR EDWARD... I WOULDN'T MIND BEING CARRIED DOWN A LONG TUNNEL BY THAT....... THAT IS UNTIL I FOUND MY NEW FAVE POSTER ....

Yup about 100 points to Jacob for this photo..... you know you are giving him points too... please please no drooling on your computers....

UUUHHHHH HHHHUUUUUHHHH!! I AM FOR SURE IN LOVE WITH

THE WARE WOLF...... DEFIANTLY A WARE WOLF FAN!!!

DID I SAY I LOVED THE WARE WOLF!?!?!?!?

So think of me on Thursday night, as I am not waiting in line, not having to buy my tickets,

and have A Happy New Moon all!!!

V!!!!!!

I know I know I know,
I am way to into the sci-fi treky like craziness if i am choosing to blog about this new tv show but I have got to say that I am WAY excited about this and I will be like those thousands and thousands of CRAZY Twlight fans when the premeire comes out...(ive even set aside my night and have bought V approproiate treats for the event. The limit was with a costume... but dont think for a sec that if i didnt have one or some cheesy shirt i wouldnt be sporting it!!) Insert what ever clever and funny name fits here, I do not care!! I am soooooo waiting for this show! I totally love all of these actors and have seen many of the tv shows they have worked on so bonus!! plus the kid although he is a kid is way way hunky dreamy bad boy...Almost as cute as my party of 5 obsession/love Scott Wolf... Dang was he so sexy and I am happy they are bringing him back!! Plus smart move making the priest this time a way dream... ok I may be going to heck for that one... but come on isnt he? (insert what ever other names you have for me here...)

BUT the real reason I am excited is because I actually remember this mini-series from the 80's because it scared the crap out of me on a weekly basis and thus began my love affair of scarey movies...

I remember watching this show probally from the stairs when I thought my parents were not watching and I remember getting sooooo freaked out and than wishing that I was the scary lizard aliens. I dont think i ever thought the food looked too great little did I know that I would be eating things very simular years later on a mission.

I loved it when the creepy old guys skin fell off and all of a sudden every human freaked out!! I loved the cheesy 80's soap opera feel of the love story between lizard boy and human girl. I loved it when they opened their mouths and dang could fit a whole guinea pig... and I loved going to school the next day and telling all my friends who werent allowed to watch it all about what had happen with the visitors!!

Oh yes my friends I will be on that couch watching tomorrow at 8/7 central I will be loving every second and i will have my gummy rats waiting, and my party of five poster and I will be in heaven... ( and maybe maybe if you want to know Ill tell you what happened the next day!!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BOY!! LOVE YOU JACK JACK

iloveyoutoo!!

im driving mandi!!
puppies and playgrounds

really mandi you cant see me...

TRACTORS !!!

jack jacks juice!!

my new big boy bed!!

its my puppy!!

MEAT!!

fire trucks!!

i hiding you cant see me!!

Say cheese auntie!!

TRACTORS!! YES!!

tractors!!

kisses?

hi guys....

hmmm playing is tooo tiring gonna rest right here!

love those poses

not a fan of the big boy slide!!

smushy faces!!

i wanna push the cart!

its so funny huh?

BYE BYE WITH MANDI?

can you say mullet?

bath? Wash hands?

kisses auntie?!!

hehehehe!!!

babys first picture?

sporting the hat...looking good!

food and binky!?! love the comb over!!

big boy slide!!

awe!! soo cute!!

love the hair!!

look at those skinny legs!!

hansome boy!! not so skinny anymore!!













look how tiny you used to be!!